Saturday, 10 June 2017



What cannot be understood by the control freaks, the authoritarians, the ruling class, or the general mass of unthinking people is that it is possible for people to actually think for themselves.  More than anything else Jeremy Corbyn's success is based on the fact that he represents other people's ideas.  He is not coming up with ideas that suit himself or an elite minority and telling people what to think.  He is not trying to persuade people to agree with him.  He offers thoughts and ideas rather than attempting to coerce, cajole, manipulate or otherwise force his ideas onto other people.

What is so unique about Corbyn is that he thinks deeply about things and stands up for what he believes in.  What is so unique about this current Labour surge is that there are millions upon millions of people in Britain who can think for themselves and this is the first time there is someone in politics who genuinely represents the main thrust of their own ideas.  This is a complete inversion of the normal hierarchical model of politics.  The only reason Labour are doing so well is because so many millions of people are beginning to connect with other thinking people.  This could be the beginnings of an intelligent community rather than just an intelligent elite.

Something like 80% of Labour intelligentsia could not understand this and considered Corbyn a liability.  They are still confused because they haven't yet grasped that it is not about them; it is about the millions of thinking, caring, responsible, motivated people in this country.  They cannot grasp the fact that Corbyn represents the genuine main stream grassroots views.  They still don't understand that it is not a case of persuading people to think in a particular way but rather about availing them of the opportunity to think for themselves and to have a voice.

This is why May and her cohorts cannot survive.  This is why they, the control freaks, the arrogant elitists, the sanctimonious hypocritical authoritarians, resort more and more to methods of control like deception, trickery, force, laws, rules, censorship, oppression, and violence to assert their will over other people.  They have been broken by authoritarianism and can see no other way to be right than to conform to some perceived and projected authority born of their childhood.  They don't have a core belief, only a core compulsion to conform.  Tragically this is pathological and they cannot break free because they believe they will die if they do.  This is deeply psychologically true.

A favourite quote of mine is from that weird story about a guy called JC.  I like the version in the King James Bible of 1611 where Matthew reports that JC said "But who so shall offend one of these little ones which beleeue in me, it were better for him that a milstone were hanged about his necke, and that hee were drowned in the depth of the Sea."  He wasn't talking about his egocentric self when he said "beleeue in me", he was talking about the spiritual "me" in each and every one of us.  He was talking about the core human harmony with the universe in which it exists.  He was talking about what all of us know from birth but are too often tragically distracted from by external oppression.

This Labour victory is about fundamental freedom.  Freedom from oppression.  Freedom to be who we are.  Freedom to rise to our greatest potential.  Freedom to be the sensitive, compassionate, intelligent, responsible, and creative creatures that we are.  With true freedom humans are the most beautiful creatures on this planet.  Without freedom they are the most hideous and dangerous creatures on this planet.  Humans, without doubt, are the most powerful of all known living creatures.  They have the power to become the very best of creation and to change the world.  All attempts to oppose that freedom can only ultimately result in failure.

Tuesday, 23 May 2017


America signs an arms deal with Saudi Arabia for over $100 billion.  Saudi Arabia is the historical birthplace of Wahhabism.  Wahhabism is the fundamental force influencing the evolution of the Taliban (now the Islamic Emirate of Afghanistan) which spawned Al-Qaeda which mutated into ISIL (Islamic State of Iraq and the Levant) and then ISIS (Islamic State of Iraq and Syria), then Daish and now IS (Islamic State).

There was a time when armies lined up facing each other in identifiably different uniforms and fought a battle.  This evolved into the industrial warfare of the 20th century.  The UK was anxious to bomb Dresden in spite of the fact it would make no difference to the outcome of WWII.  They were driven by a need to test and demonstrate their latest idea of carpet bombing to the point of causing a firestorm which would devastate an entire city.

Israel is a modern nation state created in the aftermath of WWII.  Created by the "Western" victors in an Arab country.  Theodore Herzl, the founder of Zionism, which is the political philosophy of Israel, was clear that "We must expropriate gently the private property on the estates assigned to us." and went on to explain how to slowly isolate, ostracise, and ultimately dispose of dissenting parties.  In Operation Protective Edge conducted by Israel against the poverty stricken Arab population of Gaza in 2014 over 2000 civilians were killed which included over 500 children.  The daily death toll was proportionally 16 times greater than London during the Blitz.

The Brexit vote was a vote against unaccountable authoritarianism embodied in the EU.  The unaccountable authoritarian Tories were against leaving the EU and were inadvertently left holding the reins of enacting Brexit.  Theresa May calls a snap election to consolidate Tory power because it is perceived that the Brexit process will cause too much damage to the UK and  threaten the Tories domination and power.

The UK is the second biggest arms dealer in the world and two thirds of those arms are sold to Middle Eastern countries where instability feeds into the increased risk of terror threats to Britain and across the West.  Israel, America, Britain, and the Saudis (amongst others) are the main source of arms to the "terrorist" organisations currently enacting the proxy war against all dissenters of the Western capitalist global axis of control.  Both Russia and China are very concerned to stop the expansionism of the West into this Middle Eastern region which is critical for current global energy supplies.

A common human trait is to want to cause harm to an oppressor to "teach them what it feels like".  Right or wrong that is to be expected.  These global machinations and vying for power are not only conflicts between nations or corporate interests because they depend upon the molecular substance of power which is the people.  These conflicts require people to be threatened and damaged as the manifestation of the power for the competition to even exist.  But these people are not the nations or the corporate interests.  They are people trying to live their lives.  The vast majority want peace and equity.

From Che Guevara through Barder Mainhoff to Osama bin Laden people have tried to oppose the oppression of the overriding political superstructure which constrains and inhibits the individual creative potential of the molecular population of people.  These oppositional forces of violence are routinely used to justify more oppression and, as such, become seen as part of the problem.  There is a feedback of oppression and abuse all stimulating and nurturing the very worst of human potential.  They conjure and manifest the most primordial terror in people's hearts and souls.

Then on Monday 22 May a bomb explodes at the Ariana Grande concert for young people killing more than 20 innocent civilians in the Manchester Arena.  Do I need to say more?  If you don't understand we are at war then you need to rethink your definition of war.  The war is between the inherent individual autonomous power and fabricated entities of power in the form of Nation States, Corporations, Ideologies and authoritarian political control.  The current UK election campaigning is stopped.  Arab terrorists are "blamed".  More fear, more anger, and more aggression.

My political campaigning doesn't stop.  I have more respect for the victims, both alive and dead, of this abhorrent violence.  There are always choices to be made.  The Tory Party indulges in authoritarian, imperialistic, oppression and violence, with threats and murder to control both the world and its own population.  With Jeremy Corbyn at the helm, the current Labour Party espouses equity, investment in people not corporations, reduction of violence and profiteering from the weapons of war.  He pursues policies to engage in talks with warring factions and the reduction of violence.  He believes that a well fed, well occupied, well educated population is happier for all and produces more creative results for humanity at large.

No doubt there will be many claims of "false flag" and many rather tenuous if not crazy theories involving the Illuminati, the Bilderberg Group, the IMF, Jews, Russians, Globalisation, Aliens, and possibly Noddy and Big Ears.  None of these will be bereft of any connection with reality and none will provide enough understanding alone to significantly improve the situation.  Maybe, metaphorically, we are slowly awakening to the terror within that is a global threat as if an invasion from "outside" Aliens.  At some point this pursuit of violence will cease.  We cannot end violence with violence and we will either find another way or humanity will simply destroy itself.

More than anything else if you want the violence to stop then stop pursuing the violence.  Find another way.

Monday, 13 March 2017


Woke up in a unique fabricated illusion.  It's mine.  It's what is loosely referred to as "me".  But I am not the illusion.  If there were an "I" then I am the perspective.

What is Art?  Give me a fucking huge grant and a prestigious position in an international Art Institution then I'll tell you.  Annie Lennox singing Sweet Dreams springs to mind.  "Everybody's looking for something."  I can't give everybody what they want because everybody is looking for something different.  Some of them want to abuse me.  Some of them want to be abused.

Finding an anchor point, a rock to stand on, a fixed perspective, is nigh on impossible.  It's all relative and any reference point is relative to something else.  It is nice when you can hear someone shouting abuse at you and you can see their trauma instead of feeling their pain.  It is good when you can remain calm in a tumultuous sea of despair.  There is a world of difference, however, between a sanctimonious privileged hypocrite condescending feigned stoicism and a calm spiritually centred mystic.

When people altercast at you they are simply projecting their trauma.  They are falsely holding on to a fixed reference point putting any disturbance or deviation down to you.  They are like a snake that needs a fixed object as leverage before it can crush you to death.  But being human inside these volatile circumstances it is not possible to be a static external unmoved observer.

So when the pressure increases and your family turn against you and your government slowly destroys you and every which way you turn you cannot find anyone with any influence who is not going to conspire with the cultural consensus to cut off your oxygen and suffocate you to death it all begins to feel hopeless.  I'll commit suicide.  That'll teach them.  Then they'll be sorry.  But that's been done before and it won't teach them anything and they'll probably be glad to be rid of me.  I know; I'll take out a few "innocents" with me.  I'll go into the Council Offices with a bomb and blow the whole place up.  That'll make people wonder what the fuck was going on.  No it won't.  It's been tried before.  I know ... I have a better idea, I'll kill my daughter.  That will really fuck with their minds.  That'll make them realise how hideous they are.  That'll make them sorry and finally they will pay attention to me and stop trying to kill me.  Hmm ... That won't work either.  They'll just blame it all on me and walk away muttering to themselves about how dreadful I am and why I should be terminated.  There must be a better way.


What I'll do is send my daughter into the world to be abused by them.  I'll let them pursue her and hound her and accuse her and finally murder her.  Then everyone will be shocked.  Then they'll realise what they're doing.  Then they'll feel sorry for me and try to make reparations and worship me and adore me and love me in a desperate attempt to atone for their demonic crimes.  Then I'll have them under my thumb.  They'll never be able to forgive their own despotic, ruthless, bestial, cruel, vicious nature.  They will forever be under my control.

There's one small problem with that.  It's been tried before.  When everything else fails send your son into the world and create such a fucking humungous guilt complex that for thousands of years humanity will suffer in the hell of its own insatiable guilt.  They'll escalate you to a God and worship and adore you forever.  They'll even repeatedly commit genocide for you and in your name.  How's that for success?

Oh well - I guess I'll meander off and think of something more creative to do with my time.

Friday, 10 March 2017


Some years ago I was shouting about the problem.  Now I am sitting here in front of a computer with many thoughts going round in my head.  To those who don't understand let me make it clear that physically I feel sick with distress.  Today I can get up and go for a walk or cook something to eat.  For those of you who don't understand I say FUCK OFF AND DIE.  Oh dear - does that sound offensive?  Try flechette missiles for babies it's much more fun.  And here's the thing - some of them don't die, they just suffer and are traumatised and maimed.  What fun.

I made the profound error of believing the bullshit spewed out by those in authority.  I paid attention.  Strange phrase that.  I "paid".  I was attentive and aligned myself as much as possible with their desired perspective.  I agreed that kindness was a good thing.  I agreed that honesty and equality and good intentions were values to be cherished.  I was always the first to "bury the hatchet", make way for others, tolerate mistakes and generally be amenable to those around me.

So now I am shocked to my foundations to find that really the people espousing those ideas and dictating to those smaller, younger and weaker than themselves do not abide by their own values.  They, instead, abuse these values to maintain their advantageous position over others.  In fact they derelict those values, they dispose of them, they turn them on their head and lie and cheat and assault and deceive to harm other people to maintain their own pleasure.

There is no way for me to acquire this fabricated commodity called money demanded by others to afford me the capacity to live.  I can't make my own way because they have built a fraudulent system of ownership to ensure there is no place for me outside of their constructs.  I am caught in a trap.  And for those currently immersed in the illusion of this fake materialist culture, this fairground of death, it seems you only have to comply to eke a living and be saved.

But if you do not fit the cultural requirement you are deemed a misfit, a reject, a veritable aberration.  You are, in fact, categorically disposable.  This culture is polarising around the amazingly insane idea that a pyramid economy can continue to improve whilst undermining the very foundations of its success.  This culture is consuming itself.  And the first to be annihilated are always the children, the poor, the elderly, the frail, the unemployed, and the sick.

If you have a job and a house and a currently sustainable way of life in this materialistic Western Culture and you judge, dismiss, ignore, or condemn those who are worse off than you, then you are guilty of a most insidious transgression.  If you do not lend your humanity to opposing the escalating insanity of this culture then you are feeding it and part of it and as guilty as any of those in power who are creating it.  And for those ignorant, self satisfied, sanctimonious, hypocritical religious freaks:  Don't go to church - GOD FUCKING HATES YOU.


Convoluted turmoil in the vortex of other people's convoluted  turmoil.

Inside my head I simulate what it is like inside another person's head.  Inside other people's heads are simulations of other people's heads.  One of the other people in their head is their simulation of what's inside my head.  Inside my head is a simulation of their simulation of what's inside my head which includes their simulation of my simulation of them.

All of this seems to occur inside the neurological network of our brain.

It matters to me what other people think of me.  It matters to me because I have learnt that my behaviour affects their behaviour toward me.  Just as one learns the mechanism of reaching out and picking up a glass of water to get a drink so we learn how to operate other people's behaviour around us to nourish our experience.

Because of the complex self reproduction of patterns in the material universe we are already the result of a long sequence of self interaction.  Our physical form embodies the behaviour of self simulation.  We are, to use an analogy, hard wired to simulate other people in our brains.

When I interact with people if I have an image of them which is in some way negative to them they have an image of me which is somewhat negative.  They need to alter their behaviour to cause a change in my perception which is more advantageous to them.  The complexities and variations seem endless.  But from one perspective it seems that they benefit from my good regard of them.  But if their approach to me is to attempt to change my perception of them by force or imposition then, in me at least, there is a tendency for me to object and to have a more negative view of them.  Not liking this, or not serving their inner interest, they may increase their efforts causing an amplification of the effect.

This self reflection is analogous to mirrors and in my case I often feel like a mirror to other people.  Sometimes it is as if they so dislike their reflection they try to destroy me.  To me it appears that way.  So how did I arrive at a negative perception of them?  And what of the people I regard well?

Generally speaking humans do not like killing other humans.  There has been much research done on this and any General understands that you have to condition your troops to kill.  You have to create powerful dynamics which render the soldier dependent upon your good regard of him.  He has to have a perception of the collective consensus which perceives him as good when he kills an enemy; and equally that he is bad when he doesn't.  Many soldiers return from active duty traumatised by the actions they have taken.  What is also revealing is how betrayed veterans feel when they are treated no better than cattle when they return home.

In an individual case a person does not want to break the mirror which reflects a negative image because they are more concerned to change the mirror to reflect them well.  People require mirrors because it is how they form their own image of themselves.  Of course, in extremes they will break the mirror if they are frustrated and making no improvement to their self image.  But the problem there is that the negative image which they have simulated inside their own head is now fixed and unalterable.

It seems that our self image is a reflection and as such we are not somehow a unique thing so much as a unique perspective.

One of my enduring problems is how to operate in a dysfunctional environment in such a way as to render a good result for me.  How can I act for my benefit without harming others who are harming me because that leaves me feeling bad about myself.  In this convoluted vortex of feedback I only need to chance upon smallest adjustment to alter the manifest cascading disaster into a beautiful rendition of harmonious equilibrium.

All of this is going on subliminally and unconsciously.  So, when they approach me and I either take off their heads with a scimitar or shower rose petals at their feet, is it their doing or mine?  Which will render the best result.  What God wants God gets.

Tuesday, 7 March 2017


Two news items have congealed on the surface of my fermenting consciousness.

1.  UK prisons 'holding child inmates in solitary confinement against UN torture rules'. (Mentioned in the Independent.)
2.  Facebook 'failed to remove sexualised images of children'. (Mentioned by the BBC)

I encountered them both listening to Radio 4 from my sick bed - and my bed is sick.

Apparently the British Government is in breach of International law by holding children in solitary confinement.  This should not be the surprise it appears to be by being "news worthy".  It was reported that it is well established that solitary confinement can cause irreversible mental health problems.  Again this should not be a surprise.

The issue with Facebook that interests me was that they reported the BBC journalists to the police for distributing images of child exploitation.  Apparently the "investigative" journalists had collected 100 questionable images, posted them, and then reported them to Facebook to see how many they would remove.  Whatever the details this highlights the paradoxical nature of attempting to censor other people's communications with your own judgement.  There is the philosophical issue that you should censor your own communications according to your own judgement, as should others.  But that is a well worn subject and not my issue here.  My interest is in the irony that the BBC expressed incredulity at themselves being reported to the police by Facebook whilst they were the ones distributing images of child exploitation in an entrapment exercise which is also illegal.

What seems most disturbing to me is that the whole ethos of this British Government is severely immoral and draconian, and yet virtually everyone, including myself, mixes up "authority" with "justice".  There is a profound reason for this mix up and it can be seen in the condition of being human.  Our first experience is as a dependant on an authority.  Even Christianity, as an authority and a significant world religion, attempts to mitigate this problem by asserting the paradoxical philosophical perspective that "authority" does not reside in other human beings but rather the Universe at large.  They describe it as God, but as the omnipresent omnipotent creator, God is equivalent to Universe.  The only access to this justice, this benign authority, this inviolable state of affairs, is through ourselves, our conscience, and our heart.  So true authority lies within ourselves and yet at every turn we attempt to appeal to a higher authority for justice from the current violators.  "Mummy, it's not fair he did that nasty thing."  "I'll tell teacher", " I'm calling the police", " I'll sue you", " I'll take it to the Supreme Court",  "It's against the European Convention of Human Rights",  "IT'S AGAINST INTERNATIONAL LAW."  But a brief examination of International Law should satisfy anyone that there is no justice, only dominion, oppression, and control.

Ultimately we all need to stop appealing to higher authorities and to recognise our own inalienable and incontrovertible authority.  Of course this would mean that Doctors would attend to their patients instead of their paymasters, and Judges would serve justice not the Judiciary, and people who work for the DWP would stop enacting paradoxical injustices to preserve their lowly wages.  But none of this will happen because each piece of the jigsaw is inextricably linked to every other piece and at each stage the excuse is that I need to make money so that I can live and continue to do the good things I do.  This is a profound problem in the human condition but I suspect it is not inescapable.  But who will blink first?

It would be nice at the end of a missive to have some satisfying conclusion but I have none.  I have become isolated and terrorised by the manifestation of this self contradictory culture.  In a less obvious way I am subjected to solitary confinement via economic and social constrains.  This has the inevitable consequence of doing me harm.  The sociopolitical landscape is rupturing and I have been pushed to the edge of a bottomless fissure designed to dispose of the non-conforming memes of perception which threaten to dissolve and destroy the current collective matrix of illusion which serves the oligarchs.  There is no higher authority to which I can appeal.  I am being abused to death by my own culture.

Monday, 27 February 2017



It's all well and good thinking that well crafted intellectual rational discussions are somehow better than emotional outbursts full of profanities.  There is value in the observation that they are superior in some significant way.  For example, if I am trying to explain how the adder in the arithmetic logic unit of the CPU in your computer works, I have more chance of successfully imparting that knowledge with rational and carefully crafted words than to say something less intellectual like "it works with electric fucking switches you ignorant cunt."

And yet ... I have been intrigued for most of my adult life by the successful nature, in some circumstances, of more robust and emotionally expressive language rather than intellectually crafted communications.  Even at primary school I recognised the constricting nature of the detailed minutia of the rationalised rules and regulations.  It was clear to the heart and soul that the oppressive moralising by authoritarians was inherently wrong in spite of their words seeming to make some consistent sense.  My sympathy was often with the renegade, the truculent, or even the rude or offensive child.

It seems our culture has gone a long way with the neat and tidy carefully controlled intellectual construction of rationality.  For all the benefits many philosophers have also noticed the dangers of this clinically linear approach to communication.  Over time it can become quite perverse and dislocated from reality.  It seems to me that our culture in general, and our political culture in particular, have deviated dangerously from a correct, accurate, or useful construct for operating successfully as a society in the world.

A currently fashionable example springs to mind - the idea of truth.  Given the history of academic indulgence in the pursuit of truth the culture expects truth to be a kind of thing, an item, a discernible quality, and something that can be determined.  To suggest that the truth is variable seems contradictory and quite wrong.  The reason for this is our misconception of the meaning of truth.  We nail it down in our minds and then go looking for evidence.  It is true that light is a particle and it is true that light is a wave.  It is also true that a thing cannot be both.  But the truth in those statements depends upon the domain, relevance, and purpose of the pronouncement.

The state of affairs in which we exist is precisely that state of affairs.  The fact that we can never know it does not mean it does not exist and more importantly it does not mean that our perspective on it is incorrect.  If you walk around an elephant you will get lots of different views and the more views you get the more accurate will be your comprehension of the elephant.  But no matter how many perspectives you have, the model in your head will never be the elephant.  The only thing that is the elephant is the fucking elephant in the room.

We have travelled so far up our intellectual alimentary canal that we no longer recognise the real world but reside, instead, inside the waste pipe of our own construction.  Brexit is a massive convoluted entangled mess of rationalised intellectual garbage.  It is not a real thing in the real world.  And yet, because of the power of the idea in people's heads this carbuncular manifestation constructed in the minds of the living dead will have very real destructive impact on the otherwise real and valuable people across Europe.  Trump is also not a real thing.  He is the epitome of fake news, post truth, and alternative facts.

Perhaps I could have been more succinct and accurate had I said: "They are so far up their own fucking arses they're talking shit."

Saturday, 18 February 2017



This whole Brexit fabrication is as much a puppet show pantomime as ISIS ever was.  And the crowd seem to be loving it.  Tony Blair has appeared on stage and the people are shouting "booo" and "behind you" all over again.

The vast majority of statements I encounter on this issue are essentially missing the point.  There is the view that the vote is cast and nothing can change it.  Some people think we should have another vote; some think we should make deals which keep us in Europe in every respect except in name.  And the variations proliferate.  One fundamental issue behind this fiasco is the struggle between the conflicting paradigms of free will and determinism.  The idea that the past is fixed but we can change the future.  The past, as it happens, may exist but our conception of it, the meaning and significance we give it, are in our minds and therefore not fixed in the way we imagine.  The future is only unknown to us, again, because of our minds.

The sun will rise tomorrow; that is as fixed as that it rose yesterday.  It is inconceivable that the sun won't rise tomorrow.  One can make up all sorts of scenarios to colour and distract from the central tenet but the Earth is not going to suddenly simply stop spinning and the sun is not going to suddenly simply go out like a candle.  Any speculation of extreme circumstances which could counter the claim that the sun will rise have equally extreme counterparts dismissing the "knowledge" that the past has occurred as we imagine it.  Maybe the sun didn't rise yesterday because this experience we are having is all a simulation and the sun, as we imagine it, doesn't even exist anyway.  That is philosophically as plausible as the idea the sun won't rise tomorrow.  So we do largely know the past and it is largely fixed in the sense that we mean it.  The same holds true of the future.

But we are subjectively involved in this whole system which includes us.  We do have a functional capacity to perceive, interpret, and comprehend.  We ultimately act according to the constructed concepts that are formed in our minds.  We are part of the evolving state of affairs and in that respect we interpret this as free will.  As with many things this topic is multi faceted and is difficult to delineate in a continuous stream of words on a page.  It is as if we are all in a bus and we voted to turn right and now see a ravine in front of us.  People are screaming that we should turn left but the information we have suggests there is a bottomless pit the other side.  People are suggesting we carry on the way we were going but we all knew that wasn't working.  We're all shouting at the driver and there are some even trying to grab the wheel.

It is as if we are caught in a double bind.  Trapped in the conceptual model we have built for ourselves.  Within that model an example exists to give us a clue but it is not the solution.  The example being that no one is noticing that anyone could simply stand on the brake.  All that illustrates is that there is always an unexpected option.  But within a double bind we cannot see any workable solution because it is the very nature of a double bind.  The experienced "bind" is the paradoxical nature of our dilemma.  The constraining bind is the paradigm through which we interpret the events.  For example, we are not on a bus and there are not ravines and pits all around us.  We are, for example, watching a film which is very convincing, or even in a simulator.  We only have to step outside and none of the feared disasters even exist.

This is, of course, fundamentally and spiritually true.  Whether we like it or not our future is determined but possibly not in the manner we conceive determinism.  Every single one of us will be dead in 100 years.  That is pretty well determined.  So the real issue is what are we doing in this moment as a node of consciousness.  Why are we focusing on the manifest illusion we like to imagine is "the real world" and attempting to alter the image as if it will alter reality?  What we have to do is act according to the desires and edicts of our inner souls.  We have to be compassionate, respectful of our experience, and act in ways that are just and fair.  We have to say "no" to the boss that demands we mistreat other humans or that we desecrate this world.  We have to oppose authority when it is wrong.  You can take this as far as you please but withholding tax because it is used to pay arms manufacturers to build weapons to subjugate and destroy other people instead of funding the doctors and nurses to look after the sick and the elderly would be one very difficult thing you could do.  Just because you are too afraid to do that should not be reason to justify it and to enable you to continue with the misguided assessment that you are right.

The whole construct of Brexit is a misrepresentation of the current dynamics of the human population.  That actors like Jeremy Corbyn, Theresa May, Boris Johnson, or Tony Blair get on the stage and act out roles is distracting us from the fact that we are in the theatre.  We are profoundly entrapped in our suspension of disbelief in an all consuming way.  So we shout "booo" and "behind you" with yet more enthusiasm and vigour.

This dramatic device was played out very well with the whole War on Terror nonsense culminating in the ravages of ISIS.  We are now simply indulging in a repertory theatre version in Europe whilst the US has its Trumpton variation.  So what is behind all this staged play acting?  We are destroying the environment by filling it with plastic and killing the wildlife, destroying the ecosystem by ripping up forests and raping the sea beds, and we pollute the atmosphere with toxins and poison the oceans with radiation.  All this is going on outside the theatre and the production managers are working for the owners who bought the theatre to distract us whilst they pillage our town.

There is no valid argument for or against Brexit.  There is only distraction from what the oligarchs are doing to destroy this sacred and potential paradise.

Tuesday, 1 November 2016


Still image from the video Novo Cognato

Novo Cognato is the latest in the series of collaborative ventures by Toxic Drums.  The intention being to create audiovisual works with various artists involved.  It is early days yet but there are currently three significant AVs available, PLASTICO MUNDO, SIMULACRA of the OPPRESSED, and NOVO COGNATO, which are all produced by Ian Burden and Nik Allday.

Novo Cognato consists of visuals entitled ELECTRIC MUSE created by the experimental artist Nik Allday to accompany the album track THY KINGDOM from Ian Burden's forthcoming album.

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Saturday, 24 September 2016


Jeremy Corbyn 62%
Owen Smith 38%

In the re-vote for the Labour Party Leadership Jeremy Corbyn won convincingly again.  It brings to my mind the efficacy of having a second Referendum regarding Britain's membership of the EU.  Those who are affectionately referred to as Brexiters who shout down the idea of a second referendum are exposed by this re-vote in the Labour Party.  There should never have been a need for a second vote, but then there is no harm in it either.  If the vote truly represents the considered opinions of the members then it will only be reaffirmed by a second vote.  For all the miscreant attempts by the media and other parties to alter the opinions of the majority of members in the Labour Party, the general impetus behind the attitude and ideas of Jeremy Corbyn remained strong.  I suspect if there were a second EU referendum that the results would be very different and there would be a resounding vote to remain in the EU.  Brexiters who strongly object to a second referendum are exposing their fear, and therefore expectation, that this would be the case.

There are many criticisms of Mr Corbyn from all quarters.  The most overriding one I encounter is his ineffectiveness.  I think this is at the core of the problem and is relevant in a far broader context across the globe.  In general, politics works on a competitive basis.  Like two boxers slugging it out in a ring and the audience cheering their preferred candidate.  There are folk committed to one and folk committed to the other and then there is the middle ground that has that horrible characteristic of swaying from one to the other depending upon which one appears to be winning at the moment.  The whole spectacle of the fight seems to distract people from any idea of what they happen to think is right or wrong.  It is an incredible mechanism for abdicating personal responsibility and seems to work in large part around the globe.  That might have been a useful attitude in Neanderthal times when one group encountered another group and they were likely to fight.  It doesn't matter whose side you're on so long as it's the winning side.

I have a hope that the inception of the internet has the potential to change that old limited consciousness.  The interconnectivity of the majority of individuals in the world allows more focus by individuals, without global influence, to talk about how they feel, what they imagine and hope for, what they want for their lives and for the world.  This has the possibility of raising the collective perspective to an overview rather than a polarised one.  It is as if the audience at the analogous boxing bout has grown so large that there are more and more people interested in organising the food, helping people find the loo, and generally having a satisfactory cooperative experience in the stadium.  This leaves the boxers fighting it out in a much less relevant and influential context.

The most significant issue for me when it comes to Jeremy Corbyn is that he precisely doesn't over focus on arguments about whether to turn left or right at this juncture or the minutia of how to achieve the objectives but rather maintains a perspective of where people wish to be going.  Sometimes it is not critical whether you do something this way or that way so long as the consequential decisions keep aiming at the right objective.  The criticism of Corbyn as ineffectual often seems to be about the minutia, the details, the immediate consequences.  But Corbyn maintains a vision.  A vision that is highly in tune with possibly the majority of people in Britain.  People want a civilised peaceful sustainable coexistence.  How to get it can be debated but what seems to happen so often, and particularly in right wing politics, is people focus on the method to the point of forgetting or ignoring the results.

I have no doubt that whether or not this JC survives the shark infested waters of politics in Britain and the world stage, the vote for his leadership has clarified and asserted the views of a majority of people that they wish for a more equitable and kinder society.

This is a good day for Britain regardless of what may come of it.  Today a loud voice was heard for a more rational, responsible, considerate, compassionate, and sustainable existence.

Wednesday, 1 June 2016

The existential crisis of humanity.

Altered image reproduced under Creative Commons with thanks to Nakul Chugan

I guess what astounds me most is how people turn on other people.  A long time ago I was reading about road accidents and how seriously injured people can attack the ambulance staff who are trying to save their lives.  It makes sense.  Someone is seriously injured and partially concussed and their physical body, their instincts, struggle to survive.  It is a kind of convulsive reaction to anything in their environment interfering with them.  They sometimes just lash out.  They can get very aggressive.  It makes sense when you stand back and look at it.  They seem to be in a condition which is extremely self orientated.  They are reacting to any outside influence as if it is only an object in relation to them and a potential threat.  They have a quality which is psychopathic.

One of the better qualities of people is their ability to empathise with their surroundings.  It seems a function of the brain to take in information, to model it internally, and to be able to get a sense of what it is like out there which enables them to better predict the future.  When it comes to objects this is learning and when it comes to other human beings it is called empathy.  People resonate the external world inside their neurological network and the more similar the object is to them the more they know what it 'feels' like to be that object.  Much is talked about and written about love in its many guises but in a deeply philosophical sense love is that quality of resonating in harmony with the outside world.

From my privileged position of living a post middle class existence in the UK I scan all the information I have absorbed over my lifetime and I see a world in devastating turmoil.  Not only am I in what feels like a life threatening situation of poverty and assault from other humans but I see the same pattern in the society around me with the nonsensical political ideology of austerity and Neoliberalism.  Further afield I see the same pattern of insane imperialism and aggression cascading from what can only loosely be called 'the West' across the globe.  I am not blind to the achievements of humanity and the beauty in the world.  I am not blind to the fact that even in desperate circumstance the better qualities of humanity still seem to survive against incredible odds.  But I am acutely aware of the destruction and pain cascading throughout the experience of humanity.

It seems to me at this point in time that humanity is experiencing what could best be described as a collective existential crisis.  Not so much about the actual existence or demise of humanity but rather the total incomprehension of any rhyme or reason to it all.  There are people developing incredible artificial intelligence and self controlled quadcopters, discovering gravity waves and God particles.  There are people investigating mass communication and analysing the consequences of emergent behaviour of complex systems like the internet.  There are people putting their lives on the line to protect the ecology and there are people producing the most enlightened and beautiful Art.  But there are also people continuing to build the most ridiculous store of sophisticated and incomprehensible weapons from flechette missiles to nuclear bombs which could destroy the planet.  There are hordes of people running amok raping, maiming and murdering other people.  There are numskulls pawing over complex documents trying to define deals between nations in some vain attempt to improve something for somebody.  All the while humanity is destroying its environment and on all accounts destroying itself.

Sometimes I compare my view of humanity to watching a termite colony.  These termites are doing termite stuff.  They collect food, dispose of waste, build chambers and pathways, rear new termites, defend the colony from attack or damage and generally busy themselves with everything termite.  But they build a sophisticated air conditioned termite mound whilst knowing nothing of air conditioning let alone their own dependency on the thing we call air.  They probably have no concept of air.  So there is a perspective one can take on humanity that it will just do human stuff and the bigger consequences will sort themselves out.  Without even realising it we are doing whatever we need to do and the bigger picture is outside of our comprehension but everything will be alright - so long as we continue to do human.  That does include Art, science, nuclear weapons and paedophilia.  My observations of religions and spirituality suggest this is part of how people simply accept that there is an 'out there' which they can know nothing about and so avoid being distracted by conundrums which are outside their scope of influence.

I recall an adage "If God had meant us to fly he would have given us wings." and the retort that he gave us intelligence to build aeroplanes.  It is one thing to compare our interpretation of termites with humanity but there is something significantly different; we have the self awareness to project our own sense of personal self awareness into the larger realm of humanity and conscious life in general.  We do have more complexity than termites and a more sophisticated modelling potential.  So it is just possible that we can reach outside of our subjective view into an imagined objective view of our subjective behaviour.  It is possible, at least theoretically, that humanity is capable, collectively, of seeing what humanity looks like and directing our behaviour from that perspective.  On the whole it seems to me that humanity is not doing that.  There are some people that are, but on the whole humanity is still acting subjectively 'human'.

The rapid rise of the internet and the exponentially expanding communication network between minds is possibly a central issue in the possibility of realising this greater perspective.  It is possible that humanity can apply it's wisdom and compassion, its intelligence and creativity, to the whole of the globe, the ecology, the life forms and even down to the scale of a better understanding of the individual relationships between people.  For all of the demonization of numbskulls and right wing fucknuts, for all the hatred and anger at child abusers, oligarchs, hideous dictators and terrorists, for all of the negative projections I have never encountered one real human being where it is impossible to understand that at worst they are a beautiful human being malfunctioning.

Trying to dispose of, destroy or annihilate that which we deem evil in a vain attempt to become good is a self contradictory nonsense.  We have to realise that in the pursuit of goodness we are necessarily the embodiment of what we initially perceive to be both good and evil.  We are best served by accepting and understanding that we are inherently the product of the tension between light and shadow, good and evil, subjective and objective.  Attempts to behead all evil people or hang dictators or murderers are fruitless.  The essence of humanity remains the same and more manifestations of the dichotomy will spring up in their place.  We cannot force the change of humanity to something we determine is good.  We are naive.  We don't even know what 'good' is.  But what we can do is to be good.  We need to take down the walls of secrecy in the corridors of power.  We need to include, incorporate and accommodate right wing concerns.  We need to have an environment in which the people with responsibility for others are representative of the views of the collective and not dictatorial.  We need to alter the authoritarian paradigm from power over to power within.  Somehow, to make any sense of this chaos, we need to stop the convulsive thrashing around at anything that moves and to begin to work cooperatively with what we are, not what we have been conditioned to think we should be.

We need to wake up from this subjective dream.  We need to see the matrix for what it is rather than be submerged subjectively in it.  We actually need to rise to a higher level of perception and to start acting like the benign Gods we wish existed.  We need to become the unconditional loving parents of ourselves.  This is not something any individual can do alone.  This is just an observation of a possible future.

We need to believe in ourselves.

Tuesday, 31 May 2016


Can I say that I am getting really pissed off at the shattering level of cognitive dissonance in our culture?  I shouldn't be surprised when I cast a broad view across the cultural landscape of our history and pay any attention to the utter bullshit emanating from what were imagined to be reasonably rational institutions and officialdom in general.  Endless assertions of justice for one party based on discriminatory utterances and prejudice toward another party.  From the authorities it is an endless barrage of the rich having the right to protect their stuff because the poor are scrounging scum.  Then there's what might be deemed the general opinions and views of sections of the poorer population like that ex-servicemen shouldn't be left homeless because they fought for Queen and country.  Currently their fighting is mostly an abhorrent evil being committed as lackeys for a pathologically psychopathic oligarchy.  On this scale of justice they are lucky to still be alive and not burning in the fires of hell.  But they are human, maybe misguided and betrayed, but human nonetheless.  On the basis of being human, not on any particular service, they should not be deprived of respect and a reasonable and dignified way to survive in this society.

What has got me somewhat distressed is the peculiar insanity over this issue of the man with the t-shirt.  Oddly I have even been accused of being anti-Semitic over this issue.  I really don't give a damn about Semitic or not Semitic, black, white or fucking purple, male, female, asexual, hermaphrodite, transgender or what the fuck people want to get all hot and bothered about.  One thing I know is I am evil.  I can wish people harm, I sometimes tread on spiders, I'm not always saintly and without blemish in my dealings with people - damn it, there are people I would burn to death in my imagination.  But I am good too.  I am emotional, friendly, excitable, creative, intelligent, thoughtful and there is much that one might call love within my repertoire.  I'm human.

So what is this problem with people constantly justifying their complaints about their personal treatment or their view of the world in terms of justifying it based on there not being anything wrong with themselves and often by basing it on prejudicial views of others?  Of course I recognise the symptoms of cognitive dissonance in me.  My anger at the moment may well be caused by an error in my current model of reality being questioned internally.  Of course every observation about the world out there is also an observation of me.  If it were so simple as inverting and/or transposing the view to simply acknowledge a definition of me there would not really be a problem.  Am I anti-Semitic?  I don't think so.  I have views on the French, the Chinese, the Jews, the Muslims, sailors, ballet dancers and any number of discernible groups or categories of humans.  There are positive and negative aspects in all those collections and the same applies to individuals including those with multiple personalities.  So why did it bother me that someone accused me of being anti-Semitic?

It turns out not to be because I am anti-Semitic but because the individual picked on a quote I referenced by David Cameron which referred to Jews.  The Jewish content (that is: DC's utterance) was entirely circumstantial and had nothing whatever to do with my point.  But for all that I said, he ignored the actual content and homed in (quite ridiculously) on the reference to Jews and deduced that I wanted to say Jews did 9/11.  This was so obviously ridiculous I had to ask myself what was upsetting me.  Then I got it.  He was ignoring my central communication and projecting his problem at me.  I would make a guess that he has a hang up about being anti-Semitic.

This particular projection of prejudice hasn't troubled me much but I was interested to notice the ripples of disturbance.  Now when I do the self reflection I realise it hurts me that I am both not heard (or seen or recognised or validated) and, even worse, misrepresented.  I clearly am hypersensitive to being reflected erroneously.  I have had this issue for a lot of my life with respect to being male.  It makes a kind of sense.  I am just a small, innocent, blond haired, blue eyed, inoffensive, very nice little boy (history).  Of course when I am talking to people as a 6 foot, slightly hairy, physically strong, male (who clearly in some cases stereotypically dominates) I don't understand why they have the reaction they do when I assert a point of view.  But it is simple prejudice.  They are, due to their upbringing and experience, already frightened of me (pre-judicially).  (Of course this is not always the case.  I am referring to the times when it is the case.)

And then I get it - I am prejudicial to other people.  I hasten to add not much (but I'm always open to other people's views) but I am.  Having been betrayed, on a level that clearly was significant to me, by both my parents I am actually wary when anyone expresses anything akin to love or friendship.  I actually don't trust people.  I don't think this can be resolved correctly by simply trusting people - that seems evidently stupid and quite an imposition on their freedom.  But there lies an interesting self reflection.  The big question for me is "Do I trust myself?"  The answer appears to me to be probably more than most but ultimately "No".  Hmm - Maybe that is something to work on.

Do I care if this world goes to hell in a hand basket?  Well yes, actually I do.  But I'm beginning to understand why.  I care because it is my world, it always was and always will be.  (That is not exclusive of all other people and every form of consciousness.)  I don't have to be in the same room or the same town as, say, my daughter, to actually care how she is.  I don't have to be in any particular place or time to care about the world which is, ultimately, me.  I care about this world and the people, animals, plants, rocks, et al.  But there is the bigger issue - do I trust it?  I think at the moment I have to leave that as an unknown.